All those boys I told her that always hit on her while we dated have all come forward and asked her out. She’s been back for like a week.
Last Night/This morning will probably be the last time I see her while she’s home. She claims that she can’t take seeing me right now.
She feels like she “cheated" on the guy she’s talking to in New York with me last night. I made her rethink the whole "thing" she had with him. She might end it with him. She’s no going to tell him what happened when she came home.
I’m her dirty little secret.
She told me that being with me makes her happy, and that’s the reason we can’t be together. Because she lives across the country and can’t do long distance any longer. That she needs to learn to live for herself before she can love anyone else to her fullest extent.
I guess the only thing I can do right now is disappear from her life completely. She left me this morning saying, “I love you so much. With everything. Please never forget that." Not forgetting to tell me to "Let go." I asked her "Why don’t you want to be happy?”
Not at all. Truth is… that’s all I really want and it looks like what you really want.
When will you realize that I’m the one for you. That you’ve known this for a while.
You told me that you missed making love. That you’ve been fucked, but with me even when you told me to “Fuck you” that you wouldn’t wake up to me on the other side of the bed like a mistake had been made.
"Out of the guys I’ve dated. You’re Godly" I think that I’m far from Godly. I just give effort and genuinely care about you.